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    <title>aav's Journals on Buzznet</title>
    <description><![CDATA[I DON'T THINK I TALK THAT MUCH UNLESS A SUBJECT REALLY GRABS ME (THEN NOTHING CAN SHUT ME UP), I MOSTLY STARE BLANKLY AT A WALL (I'M JUST THINKING THOUGH), SOMTIMES I READ (READING OR WATCHING TV IS BETTER THEN MOST OF MY CONVERSATIONS), I CAN BE ANNOYING, LITTLE THINGS START TO BUG ME AFTER SOME TIME, BUT ALL AND ALL I PRETTY FUN (I THINK).]]></description>
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	      <title><![CDATA[link]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/2082471/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>I know it has been a whlie since i've done anything on buzznet so i thought i'd post this link </P>
<P><A href="http://www.mycrazyroommate.com/search/label/P">http://www.mycrazyroommate.com/search/label/P</A></P>
<P>this leads to a blog site where this guy writes about his roommate who is so f-ing funny. well, this exact link leads to a section titled P, its just a few randomly crazy stories about this guys roommate.&nbsp;one of my favorites is Return of P, it is so stupid that it is acutally kind of funny. check it out. it is deffinetly good for a few good laughs.&nbsp;</P>]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-03-28T23:04:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[stimulating talk radio my fucking ass! PIGS!]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/1277671/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>I never really understood why the feminist I have meet in life were so pissed off, now I know.</P>
<P>I had to get a ride to and from class today and the sob that gave me a ride listens to nothing but talk radio. This is a problem because I find talk radio kind of boring, so if I ride with person I usaly bring my i-pod, thid time I forgot it. On the way to class it wasn't to bad listining to the radio, he had some jazz stations playing. But on the way back he put on this supposedly "stimulating" talk radio. The commercial for the next show was this fucking pig, who has the nerve to actually call himself a man, insulting women. To make it worst, the guy I was with was laughing and agreeing with this jack-ass. I never really liked this person that gave the ride but now I really don't like him. </P>
<P>I can't believe that there are people out there who have radio stations that reach millions of people a day and use it to spillout trash and fith that serves no form of entertainment or educational value. I can't waite to get my station up. It's going to be mostly music but there will be interviews and short talk segments (mostly late night) that cover a wide spectrum (musicians, politicans, actors, artist, anyone fasinating). There will be jokes, I will insult those who set themselves up for it, but I will not attack people just becuase I can. I'll put my station to good use, I will not abuse my power like some people. </P>
<P>Sorry, I know this sounds like bitchy rantings, but I'm pissed off!!</P>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>anger</category>
		  		  	<category>feminist</category>
		  		  	<category>pigs</category>
		  		  	<category>radio</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-11-09T15:16:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Holy Sh*#!]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/1211981/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[Hey guys (anyone who actually reads this crap) I just got back from Halloween Horror Nights '07 
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<P>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; and it FUCKING ROCKED! </P>
<P>Four mazes, four live shows, three attractions not counting the Terror Tram, and five fucking scare zones all filled with cheap thrills. The scare zones and the Nightmare on Elm Street maze are what really&nbsp; got me screaming.&nbsp;The tram ride was our first stop, we had an awsome tram driver. So it tacks you to the back lot&nbsp;where you get off and wander around while fucking zombies with tin cans filled with rocks come-up behind you, scream at you, and chase after you. Ran and you're fucked, stand still and you're fucked, either way you're fucked!&nbsp;Throughout the whole park there were these guys running around with chainsaws and following the ones who were really scared, so you can only imagine how my night went. The Nightmare on Elm Street maze seemed kind of short but the people in there were just fucking terrifying, and when you think it's over some damn son-of-a-bitch had to pop out and give you damn herat attack! I practically ran over my friend Justine, but she understood. The House of Horrors maze was really creepy and we had it was only worst becuase right behind us were these two girls who screamed at every turn so all the workers were of course picking on us. The live shows were great, they were a relaxing comfort from the terror packed streets. My personal fav was Chucky's Insult Emporium, you basically paid to get into Universal and have Chucky (that fucking creepy ass yet very cool killer doll) insult you in the worst ways. Speaking of insults, Bill and Ted's Excellent Halloween Adventure really attacked popculture. They made fun of Brittany Spears, Paris Hillton, Lindsey Lohan, Heros, 300, Rocky Balboa, Transformers, My Chemical Romance, Donald Trump, Rosie O'Donald, and that show that exposes internet perves and pediphilos. All of this was done to random song and dance, so like the movie it was so stupid you had to sit throught it in hopes that it might get better, at least it was kinda funny. Another great show was Dark Magic and Dirty Tricks, this guy really put on a funny show. He made himself into a human crazy straw, stuck a neddel in one eye and made it come out of his other eye and then his mouth. He also introduced us to Mr. Happy Pants (the sick freak!), he also did this one thing involving static and camera-phones that really scared he shit out of us! Then there was Slauther World, they said that the show all blood, gore, violence, and adult themes. The show was nothing but sexual inuandos, but Kitten and the Gimp were my favs.</P>
<P>I really suggest that you go befor its over and if you miss it to bad for you 'casue you're going to have to waite till next year. See you then!</P>
<P>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </P>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>freddy</category>
		  		  	<category>halloween horror nights</category>
		  		  	<category>jack</category>
		  		  	<category>jason</category>
		  		  	<category>universal studios hollywood</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-10-28T01:58:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[words of wisdom]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/1008921/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>ok, I'm so fucking bored and I'm trying harder then ever to aviod doing my sociology assignment that I decied to dispence to anyone, who actually reads this crap, some words of wisdom:</P>
<P>life is a brief interlude between nothingness and eternity</P>
<P>to make headlines you have to use a corduroy pillow</P>
<P>so many pedestrians, so little time</P>
<P>reality is an obstacal to halusination</P>
<P>change is inevitable, except from a vending machine</P>
<P>everyday a day gose by</P>
<P>suicide is the most sincere form of self criticism</P>
<P>you cant' have everything ... where would you keep it?</P>
<P>lookout for number 1. don't step in number 2</P>
<P>never trust a skinny cook</P>
<P>never eat anything bigger then your head</P>
<P>it is morally wrong to let suckers keep thier money</P>
<P>clams are not all that happy</P>
<P>if everything seems to be going your way you're probably in the wrong lane</P>
<P>you're not paranoid, they really are out to get you</P>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>funny</category>
		  		  	<category>wisdom</category>
		  		  	<category>words</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-09-16T21:22:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[If You Weren't There ....]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/710601/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>....&nbsp;You Missed Out!</P>
<P>Last night was the long anticipated Projekt Revolution Tour! The wait to get in was .... a&nbsp; nightmare .... but when you were finnally in and the show began (<STRIKE>even</STRIKE> no especially at the revolution stage) the wait seemed totally worth it. " In short... You Missed Out! on a great show, and I have one thing to say... Urine signed amd hugged stuff!"- Olive, "And if you don't know who that is, fell shame! I want you to feel great SHAME!"</P>
<P>Yeah it really was one hell of a show! Battling heat, sweaty fat men, public urination was so worth it. And one of the best things to come out of it... I could have won free condoms.</P>
<P>&nbsp;</P>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>him</category>
		  		  	<category>linkin park</category>
		  		  	<category>madina lake</category>
		  		  	<category>mindless self indulgence</category>
		  		  	<category>my chemical romance</category>
		  		  	<category>projekt revolution tour</category>
		  		  	<category>saosin</category>
		  		  	<category>taking back sunday</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-07-29T08:54:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[You Gotta Pay If You Wanna Party]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/504241/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>Just came back from one of the best concerts I have been to at The Chain Reaction in Anahime (sorry about the spelling). Close But Not Quite, The Ready Aim Fire, Goodbye Elliot, and Metro Station! It was my first time evr hearing The Ready Aim Fire and Close But Not Quite and I have to say I was not disappointed. Close But Not Quite has deffinetly made my top ten fav band list, and of cours Metro Station is on that list. Tonight Metro Station ruled the stage, they were <STRONG>f-ing amazing</STRONG>! I really need to see them again when I know all thier songs (i only new a few). If you ever hear of these four bands play near you I highy suggest seeing them, <STRONG>you will not be disappointed</STRONG>.</P>
<P>F.Y.I&nbsp;- Metro Station will be going <STRONG>on tour</STRONG> sometime around this fall or end of summer so look out for them and go see them!</P>
<P>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Later Days,</P>
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<P>P.S.</P>
<P>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; on a more personal note Trace, I hope you know how much physical pain I suffered for you tonight. i &lt;3 u!</P>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>chain reaction</category>
		  		  	<category>close but not quite</category>
		  		  	<category>goodbye elliot</category>
		  		  	<category>metro station</category>
		  		  	<category>the ready aim fire</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-06-29T00:39:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[&quot;High School Never Ends&quot; - DAMNIT! THATS WHY I F-ING LEFT]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/345711/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<FONT face=Verdana><FONT size=5><STRONG>BOWLING FOR SOUP LYRICS<BR><BR></STRONG></FONT><STRONG><FONT size=2>"High School Never Ends"</STRONG><BR><BR>Four years you think for sure<BR>That’s all you’ve got to endure<BR>All the total dicks<BR>All the stuck up chicks<BR>So superficial, so immature<BR>Then when you graduate<BR>You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT<BR>This is the same as where I just came from<BR>I thought it was over<BR>Aw that’s just great<BR><BR>The whole damn world is just as obsessed<BR>With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex,<BR>Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys,<BR>Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess<BR>And you still don’t have the right look<BR>And you don’t have the right friends<BR>Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends<BR>High school never ends<BR><BR>Check out the popular kids<BR>You’ll never guess what Jessica did<BR>How did Mary Kate lose all that weight<BR>And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom’s straight<BR>And the only thing that matters<BR>Is climbing up that social ladder<BR>Still care about your hair and the car you drive<BR>Doesn’t matter if you’re sixteen or thirty-five<BR><BR>Reese Witherspoon,<BR>She’s the prom queen<BR>Bill Gates,<BR>Captain of the chess team<BR>Jack Black, the clown<BR>Brad Pitt, the quarterback<BR>I’ve seen it all before<BR>I want my money back<BR><BR>The whole damn world is just as obsessed<BR>With who’s the best dressed and who’s having sex,<BR>Who’s in the clubs and who’s on the drugs,<BR>Who’s throwing up before they digest<BR>And you still don’t have the right look<BR>And you don’t have the right friends<BR>And you’re still listen to the same shit you did back then<BR>High school never ends<BR><BR>High school never ends<BR><BR>The whole damn world is just as obsessed<BR>With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex,<BR>Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys,<BR>Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess<BR>And I still don’t have the right look<BR>And I still have the same three friends<BR>And I’m pretty much the same as I was back then<BR>High school never ends<BR><BR>High school never ends<BR><BR>High school never ends</FONT><BR><BR></FONT>]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-06-05T17:15:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[You Must Dance, Dance, Dance! In a Big Way.]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/281011/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>If you weren't at the EL REY on May 24 you missed one hell of a show! </P>
<P>Originally I was there for Young Love (Erick is the star of the band, ADMIT IT!). But I was blown away by Liam And Me, Play Radio Play (do they ever diappoint?), and of course the head lining act Under The Influence Of Giants. This was my first time hearing these three bands live and I'm so looking foward to doing it again. I am very picky about my music, especially live music, so you know they have to be good I'm willing to see them again.</P>
<P>The four bands each have thier own personal style but they reallt came together with this dance/techno/electric/rock (I have no idea what to call it, if you know please tell me). These guys kept the floor moving all night. It didn't matter if it was your first, second, or tenth time seeing any of these bands, if you were there you were daning your ass off (even if you don't the best moves). </P>
<P>I advise anyone who reads this to see these bands when you have the chance, you won't regret it.</P>
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<P>&nbsp;</P>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>el rey theatre</category>
		  		  	<category>liam and me</category>
		  		  	<category>play radio play</category>
		  		  	<category>under the influence of giants</category>
		  		  	<category>young love</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-05-25T18:39:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[goodbye.............maybe]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/205631/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>to anyone who gose on my page (not like anyone really does) i might not be back on for a whlie. i jsut found out to day that my nina Mary died. i saw her dead body be carried out from her house, i saw her daughter break down, and i witnessed the crule and cold heart of my "father" first hand. so please don't say ur sorry or pary for me, if you do pray then pray for her family, they need some kind of help and "god" won't listen to me. </P>
<P>goodbye............................................................................................................................maybe</P>
<P>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; lizzie</P>]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-05-12T22:44:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[question...]]></title>
	      <link>http://aav.buzznet.com/user/journal/165758/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>... why do people who are so kind and so sweet have to die so horribally and people who are absoluty terribal either live forever or die peacfully? </P>
<P>as i write this my aunt, almost my second mother, is lying in a hospital bed in a room no bigger then my bathroom and is dying slowly and painfully. she is terribally skinny and bald from the radiation therapy but she is still one of the prettiest things my eyes have ever held. why dose she have to suffer? what has she ever done? </P>
<P>i have gone to catholic school my whole life and they all say the same thing, "things happen for a reason. it is all part of God's great plan." if it all part of God's great plan then why dose it have to involve the suffering of someone who has devoted thier life to him? why dose she have to die this way? it just isn't fair! and the only way i get to see her or express my pain is in the silence of the night. my father has "refused" (as he really has any power over me) to let me or my mother visit her and her family in this thier time of great pain and sorrow. </P>
<P>do you have any idea how much it hurts to not see the person that practically raised you. and now she is dying and i can't be by her side to hold her hand for the last time, or kiss her cheeck, or say thank you for the years she spent looking after me as if i were her own. i know that soon the call will come that she has left us and i have preparing my self for that moment but every time i think i can handel it i just keep thinking that i'll walk on my closly approaching graduation day and there will be any empty seat in both my family section and my heart. </P>
<P>i don't want to be around for the call, i don't want to have to put on my best funneral attire and stand over a box that holds the remains of someone i admire. she IS a wonderful person, a honest perrson, a kind person, and a faithful mother, wife, and friend. how can you let someone like that go? how can you sit back while someone like that just slowly dies in front of you? it isn't fair! </P>
<P>i let go of God when my mom first got sick and ever since then nothing good has really happened to all the good people around me, things jsut got worse. how can i trn back to god when he can be so crule? was it me, was it because i turnrd away from him he decided to make life hell for all the good people in my life? if it was me then why not handel it with me directly? why fuck with every one else? </P>
<P>IT ISN'T FAIR!</P>]]></description>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>aav</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2007-04-30T00:56:00Z</dc:date>
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